I started tweeting more during the covid pandemic initially to campaign for help for my small business. This progressed quickly into areas of my professional and personal life unseen by others, but common to many.
After reading all the papers and opinions I could find, I felt the need to starting explaining my position more formally, and several kind commentators suggested I start a blog. This has now been written up as a memoir, so for now, I have taken down most of the individual posts in lieu of publication.
I have left up two, one describes my position as we entered the pandemic and the second when the risk of further restrictions and lockdowns appear to have passed. The rest of the memoir is a personal account of my experiences and how I tried to make sense of them. It is largely a narrative, a personal journal. I hope people will find this insightful, allowing them to acknowledge and discuss their own feelings and experiences, particularly when so much of this was denied or glossed over at the time.
I hope the book is, overall, a positive read. There are glimpses of joy, a recognition of what is important in life and what to try and hold on to going forwards. A recognition that we need time to reflect before moving on, and that reboarding back into our pre pandemic lives will be difficult.
My first draft was very angry, because I was very angry. I have left some of this in as a faithful representation of how it was, in the thick of it. How it felt to have nobody in your corner. Much as I’m not proud of some of it, it is an accurate reflection of how it felt.
Thank you for the many thousands (gulp) who have taken time to read my thoughts thus far.
Watch this space for news of publication!
As a Physiotherapist
Physiotherapists are experts in health, and our job focusses on how to gain the best possible quality of life. My main area of practice is work and stress related musculoskeletal conditions in office workers. I have been qualified for over 30 years, and worked in private practice in the City of London for the last 20. As part of this, I run three clinics within companies, including attending multidisciplinary team meetings to provide as holistic and joined up a service as possible.
During covid, I treated patients throughout, returning to in person appointments at the end of May 2020, continuing ever since.
I worked on test and trace, at the Nightingale and trained as a vaccinator.
As a Small Business Owner
As the sole director of a limited company, I had no government income support. In the first months of the pandemic, I also had no help with rent, rates or costs of my business. Like many other limited company owners, our needs were ignored as we plunged further and further into debt.
As a Parent
With school aged children, I saw first hand the devastating effects of lockdown: not only at home, but in conversations with teachers, patients and other parents. Impositions and restrictions were placed on them that we would never ask of adults.
As time has gone on, this division has become more and more apparent. Their lack of power has meant that far from being our most precious and important priority, they have been subjected to earlier, longer and more severe restrictions than almost any other group, despite being the least vulnerable to illness.
As a City Dweller
Living and working in Westminster, I witnessed the rapid descent of London into a ghost town. IN the first lockdown, this was concentrated in the tourist areas of town, within walking distance of my Pimlico home. In the third, surveying the empty carcass of the city.